Sometimes it's important to remind yourself why
you are doing what you are doing. I can assure you it's not for the money in my
case – well, maybe a long term incentive. If it was for a short term gain, I
would have given up years ago! We do desperately need some money coming in but,
since Meniere's, it has been almost impossible to find a sympathetic employer.
That's a great shame because I have so much experience and knowledge. I'm also
ambitious, creative and continually wanting to improve.
Now, on top of writing, I know which career
direction I am taking. I'm not prepared to be written off by Meniere's. I have
a plan and no-one or nothing is going to stop me from pursuing it and achieving
my goals. Life is for living and I am damn sure I am going to wring every last
drop out of mine.
It's time to cut out all the doubts, the 'I can’t
do this' and 'I'm not god enough' and hold my head up high and shout, "I'M ACTUALLY DOING THIS. I'M A
PUBLISHED AUTHOR, A GREAT MUM, A MASTER'S STUDENT AND A THOROUGHLY DECENT HUMAN
BEING.' How many can actually declare that? I'm perfectly imperfect in
every way but I'm a trier and everyone loves a trier…right?
This is my last week before I start my Master's
degree. Leeds Beckett University holds a special place in my heart – it is a
place that gives me self-confidence and self-belief. I love the vibrant
atmosphere and mulling around the library. I've also signed up for lessons in
either Portuguese or Italian, one evening a week.
I am continuing my writing at the same time as
studying. It is important for my future career progression in the industry of
my choice. More importantly, I love what I do. I draw strength from all your positive
reviews and a huge sense of achievement at the end of one project and the start
of another.
Writing
This week's writing has taken me to Lulea in
Sweden and Marbella in Spain without even leaving my desk! Two very contrasting
settings, chosen for, just that. In the future, I hope I can travel to these
places, when my finances allow me, and write whilst there but in the meantime I
have my other sources. One of the best parts of writing is the transportation
away from the stresses of my own life into imaginary worlds. When I'm writing
about Marbella, I can feel the sun on my face and the surrounding tranquility
of a sea resort. Lulea offers the crisp snow and a winter chill drawing you
into a log cabin with a raging fire. I have a great sense of calm when writing
and enter into my own little world. It's very therapeutic.
I also love the flexibility of writing. I write
anywhere - bed, kitchen whilst cooking, outside school waiting for Lucas,
outside the gym whilst Wes trains (I'm the taxi!), even in the supermarket
pushing the trolley when a rush of ideas flow out of my brain! I write
everywhere and anywhere. One contract would secure our future – just one.
Giving up is NOT in my DNA.
Labour Leadership
It is two weeks until the result will be known.
We desperately need Jeremy Corbyn to be re-elected and Labour MPs to accept the
decision. I suspect the latter will not happen otherwise we would not be going through
this pointless charade. I will be doing all I can to support Jeremy Corbyn as I
genuinely believe the ideas he has and John McDonnell's economic policy, will
bring greater opportunities for everyone in this country. For me, though, their
biggest appeal is their impenetrable stance against corruption. Having lived
through Hillsborough, Orgreave, child abuse allegations and the banking crisis,
the corruption through the whole system is glaringly obvious, as is the
institutional prejudice and elitism and that, sadly, includes within the Labour
Party.
Our country is more divided now than ever
before, caused by those who want to seek to divide us and make us weak enough
not to resist or hallenge their gravy train. It's ironic, though, these very
people know our real strength if we all stick together. Strength through unity
is the establishments greatest fear. They will use anything to stop us joining
together including despicable racism and segregation. Thatcher started the
breaking up of our communities, our trade unions and advocating and effectively
creating New Labour. In my humble opinion, Thatcher did a bloody good job
instilling a sense of inferiority into the Labour Party. Too many Labour MPs, including
Owen Smith, believe we have to become like the Tories to beat them. I believe
we lost General Elections and credibility by doing just that. 
Ask yourself – where do our taxes go? We pay
tax for public services, the NHS, education, social care… yet, all the taxes we
pay are NOT used for these, otherwise they would not be in crisis. Instead, money
is diverted to fund bank bailouts, wars, airstrikes and MPs' extortionate
expenses. We allow them to manipulate us – make us believe we have to live
within our means while forcing our children to accept tens of thousands of
pounds of debt so they have a degree from the education system our taxes are
supposed to pay for!! I don’t understand
why people fall for it. State pension is not a welfare payment – you have PAID
for it all your working life!
Jeremy has woken people up and will continue to
do so. Please WAKE UP! We can do this – we can join together and under Jeremy's
leadership, we can eradicate the lies, the fat cats and turn around the
fortunes of millions instead of the elite few. We do have HOPE – at last! I'll
jump off my soap box now.
Well, I'm off to spend some quality time with
the boys and sneak in some writing when they retreat to their Xboxes. Have a
fabulous weekend. MAKE IT COUNT.
Much love
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