Wednesday, 4 May 2016

We... yes you and I, CAN change the world TOGETHER

I absolutely dread to think what my blood pressure levels have been this week. The Establishment is rattled, here in the UK! They know us peasants are becoming restless - sick of the lies, cover ups and dishonesty. You can see their desperation in the smears being fed into the media machine. The fact that the Hillsborough verdict,Orgreave, the Doctors' Strike, Teachers' voting to strike, the failed Housing Bill, the steel industry, the jobs lost in retail, the crumbling economy and the election fraud have not made the headlines, proves the strangle hold the right wing press have over all of us. Austerity and conflict are political choices. We need to educate our children to understand and not be compliant, silent by-standers.  Wes has voted for the first time this year and I am pleased he sees the importance of using his voice. DON'T stand by, have your say. For the first time in thirty years, we have, in the UK, the opportunity to address the inequality, the dishonesty and really dispel all the capitalist myths. No longer can we complain, "they are all the same."

This week, I responded to the Labour's defence review. All party members have the opportunity to have their say. If you're interested in my response, it is available here.  

Meniere's and the timing of meetings vs the boys' needs, makes it difficult to be an active local member – if only all letter boxes were at eye level AND telephone canvassing wasn't so challenging with tinnitus and fluctuating hearing. At least under the new leadership, grass root members have an opportunity to give an opinion and  I feel I am making a small contribution.

Star Wars Day

I have my very own Jedi knight who keeps me on my toes, shows me the way and always has my back.

May the 4th - we love Star Wars in this house. May the force by with you and new hope too.


This week I have taken the opportunity to take a step back and review where I am and where I want to be. Some devastating family news has made me even more determined to ignore the doubters and press on with my plans to world domination – in writing. None of us know how long we have and I at least want to have known I had tried my best.

When I started writing Beyond the Past, I was incredibly na├»ve and knew nothing of the publishing industry. I have maintained since then, the writing part is the easiest part of being an author. Unfortunately, the industry, like many unregulated industries these days, is full of unscrupulous people trying to make money off other people's hard work. This is the main reason I joined the Writers' Guild of Great Britain – that and the fact that trade unions should be at the heart of all our industries! Don't get me wrong, there are some great agents and publishers but even they will admit there are crooks in the industry that promise everything, deliver nothing. I work incredibly hard and at the moment, we are surviving, just. I am not giving up though, why should I? I know I can write – the 5 star reviews are proof of that. I consider these and the next couple of years are foundation years. You need to learn the industry and craft. This is not a whim for me; it's very much a career choice. Therefore, I need to keep improving and learning hence completing the recent screenwriting course. It all helps. Let's face it when I started this blog, I never imagined we would be close to 35,000 views. You have to build a new career. SO, this week's review has included:

  1. Writing an author profile to issue to publishers; agents; production companies
  2. Reviewing social media accounts
  3. Reviewing the current state of the industry – who is accepting and not accepting new works. I have learned it is vitally important to stay up to date with the industry. It also helps with the days when the isolation becomes overwhelming.
  4. Review of outlines/ book ideas.
  5. Update and review of my website

This is my job - writing only a small proportion of it; these are just some of the tasks I'm involved in.

  1. Writing
  2. Editing 
  3. Proofreading
  4. Marketing
  5. Legal/contract work
  6. Customer services
  7. Planning and preparation
  8. Public speaking
  9. Resilience
  10. Time management
  11. Sheer hard work and determination
  12. Web design
  13. Social media management
  14. Blogging
  15. Chief negotiator, diplomat, fixer
  16. PA, receptionist, tea maker (most important job of all!)

I'm doing this for ME. If anyone can't understand that, then that is on them not me. The truth is, I absolutely love what I do. I believe all my years working in the corporate world has brought me experiences that I use today. I hate that the boys have to make sacrifices BUT they keep telling me they are really happy with their lives AND that means I'm doing another job well! Please, please use your vote this week...

Happy Mummy, happy writer.

Thursday, 28 April 2016

British values? LOOK TO LIVERPOOL Mr Cameron!

When Cameron spouted on about 'British values' I shouted at the television screen, screaming the Tories wouldn’t know true values if they jumped up and bit them on the backside. When I challenged his supporters on the meaning of British values, no one could give me a definitive explanation. I gave them an answer – "Go to Liverpool and meet the people." They didn't like it one bit. I was called 'an idiot', 'ill informed', 'typical red' and even 'a defender of murderers'. YEP, it is true!  

I bring my children up on the 'Liverpool values' – family; truth; honesty; integrity and fight for justice. I teach mine the importance of questioning pieces of writing – the motive of the author, the purpose of the article and to question, with respect, authority if they feel something is wrong. I even teach them 'respect' is NOT an automatic entitlement and has to be earned, regardless of who you are. Up to this week, there has been an inner anxiety that I have set them up to fail in a self-serving, dishonest world but I do believe they are now more prepared for the future than most adults I know. 

Let me take you back to the late 1970s and 1980s. I am not a Liverpudlian – I am from Leeds and a true northern Yorkshire lass. My love affair with Liverpool started in the 1970s. My parents are huge Beatles' fans. We spent lots of family days over in Liverpool searching for all the Beatle locations, including primary schools, homes, etc. Those family days are really precious to me and led me to a life-long love of John Lennon and Liverpool FC. They were the happiest days of my childhood. 

For me the 1980s represented then, and still do now, all that is evil about the Conservative party and the establishment they created. No one in my family is politically motivated and I have to thank Colin Burgon for opening my eyes and releasing what was already in my heart – socialism. I was ridiculed and berated for hating Thatcher but in my heart, even before Hillsborough, I had this gut feeling of dishonesty and disingenuity every time she spoke. I was SEVENTEEN. This was in my heart. I should have known then - always to trust my gut instincts. Then came the Miner's strike. At times, it felt like I was the only one who could see the Government was using the police force against its own people – the people they had sworn an oath to protect and serve. We would denounce any other Government for doing this!! The 1980s was a pure class fight, plain and simple. Thatcher could not follow true capitalist policies with a strong unionised workforce. I was SEVENTEEN and I could see it. 

During this time, I had to endure racism at its worst within our extended family. One of our relatives was a police officer and I remember one day she came round to our house bragging about how she'd got a confession out of someone. I lost it. I totally let rip. In front of my Dad, I told her to stick her prejudicial views and her corruption up her a***. I even told her she was part of a fascist plot against working people. I apologised to my Dad after – not for what I said but out of respect for him. 

Then, came Orgreave. I cried. I was devastated to watch the lies unfold. To watch the police batter people who only wanted to save their jobs, feed their families. It was a sad day when the miners were forced to give up their fight. 

Hillsborough was heart breaking. The human suffering and devastation can never, ever be overstated. Anyone who has spent time in Liverpool, with Liverpool families, would never, EVER believe the lies that were told in the aftermath of the disaster. The truth has always been there and always known by everyone involved. The TRUTH has ALWAYS been there!

A couple of days after the disaster, we travelled over to Anfield to pay our respects. I remember the long, silent queue that spanned the perimeter of the fence, which is now the Centenary Stand. Poems and messages had been written all along the fence. The silence was overwhelming. A lady came out of her house opposite the ground and came over to us. She threw her arms around my neck – a complete stranger – and thanked me for coming to her city. That IS Liverpool; that is MY Liverpool. The city of kindness and heart-warming friendliness. 

Years later, I took Wes to his first Liverpool game against Barcelona. There was just me and him. When we got in the ground, a steward smiled and started talking to Wes. He actually walked us to our seat!! That is MY Liverpool. 

Watching the fight, the Hillsborough families fought, makes me immensely proud. Anne Williams was incredible and such an inspiration. She didn't ask for the fight but by God, she took it on and was fierce. I was in awe of her and there is not one word that can possibly explain how much influence her fight had on my life. She is the reason I am the Mum I am today. She taught me how to fight for our children, for truth and justice and she will always be my working class hero.

The Hillsborough verdicts have much wider implications than Liverpool. They are a catalyst for change and we ALL have a responsibility to pursue that change – to stop corruption and put those British values back into the heart of our country – family; truth; honesty and fight for justice; integrity. Thatcher stole these away from US as a nation, it's time to bring them back. 

I stand by my prediction that, in years to come, it will be proven beyond doubt, Thatcher will be the worst Prime Minister in social British history. We know they lied about Hillsborough, I know they lied about Orgreave, what else have they lied about? The 1980s were rotten to the core!

The Government need silent compliance; they need us to roll over and accept their version as the 'truth'. They hate Liverpool because the people refused to roll over; they refused silent compliance. They picked on the wrong city and now, as a country, WE ALL need to FIGHT together to ensure the changes started by the heroism of the Hillsborough families and survivors, continue until we have a fully accountable establishment and media. Jeremy Corbyn and John McDonnell have my full support, not just because they are old, like me, and remember the horrors of the 1980s, but because they are everything that our public representatives should be – HONEST!!!

Thank you to the Hillsborough families, the courageous survivors, the honest people who tried to save lives that fateful day and everyone who wants to see a better world for our children. Most of all thank you to Anne and Sara xx

Rest in Peace at last 96 angels – you'll never walk alone

Sunday, 24 April 2016

Never, ever underestimate the power of positive words

Sometimes it only takes one positive word of encouragement to provoke a light bulb moment; a moment of total inspiration.

Yesterday, I accompanied Wes, at his request, to his applicant's day at Leeds Beckett University. I love the university – its buildings, its atmosphere, its history and it was my road to freedom after Meniere's robbed me of my career. The course tutor reminded me of the reasons why I am writing now. It was such a tonic and all I needed to spur me on to keep going. Never, ever underestimate the power of your words!

Wes is so ready for university and the course is perfect for him, combining sport with social justice, history and politics. I'm jealous – it sounds fascinating. I am incredibly proud of the gentleman he has turned into and my children will be my greatest legacy. He just has his 'A' levels to pass now – 'just' as if it is a simple task! I have total faith he will do well…I can't think where he gets his motivation from.

Any of my UK followers willing for the 24th June? I AM. The EU referendum is utterly and totally doing my head in. I am so ashamed of the rubbish being spouted especially when it comes to race. The elitist and supreme attitude of some is astounding. It's laughable Obama is being slated for having an opinion. He's damned if he does, damned if he doesn’t. All I would say is if he had backed Brexit, I'm damn sure the 'IN' campaign would not have stooped so low as to question his heritage and bring race into the argument. It is absolute arrogance to think, if we leave the EU, all other countries will drop all their current plans and schedules, to sort out urgent deals with the UK. Why would anyone assume, if we decide to isolate ourselves, other countries will bend over backwards to re-negotiate with us. As with everything with the EU referendum, Obama's stance has been blown totally out of proportion by the very media who would benefit from an EU exit.

What worries me more, is the blatant, open racism being spouted by Johnson, also by Cameron in relation to the Mayoral elections. To stoop that low only suggests they are very, desperate, despicable men – and I use the term 'men' loosely. The dark, dark ages of inequality scares me enormously.

Right, work wise, I've been busy…


After my uplifting visit, I came home and spent all night and today, re-writing/editing this screenplay. Now…it IS finished. I am 99.9% happy with it – there's always room for improvement. No one is perfect! Tomorrow, I am putting the finishing touches to the Treatment, then off it goes… another child cast away into the big, bad world.


The Nanny

This is my next major project and then after that, Twin Lies – but that's for another day. The Nanny is progressing well. The plan is complete and I am currently researching the Troubles in Northern Ireland – this forms the back drop to this thriller. I'm having great fun formulating all the main characters and their mannerisms. 

Beyond the Past

Have you had the chance to read it yet? 

Would you like to review it for me? 

Read the first three chapters FREE on my website
Available from:
Pegasus Publishers
Amazon UK
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Or you can order from your local bookshop. 
The ISBN number is : 978-1-84386-789-0


I'm still waiting to hear about my PhD. Patience is a virtue or so they say! I have a few alternative plans to explore but I WILL be back at Uni soon. My determination has not let me down so far.

Right, I'm off. It's Sunday afternoon, which means uniforms need ironing. There is absolutely no chance of me not having my feet on the ground.

Have a fabulous week. Stay safe but be brave.